The last thing I ever wanted this blog to be was political. It’s been awhile since I posted anything, life gets in the way and although I wish I could be the blogger I see other being, it’s just in the cards for me right now. But I to write about the Senate vote yesterday. I can’t bring myself to use his name, but the man who was just voted into the highest court is sickening. There are several witnesses who have come forward to say he lied under oath, and to be honest, there’s no need to share my opinion of what he did or didn’t do to Dr Ford. I realize the evidence isn’t in her favor, but I still cannot understand what she has to gain. He has all of the reasons in the world to lie, she does not. He has the power of the US Senate and the White House behind him, intent on making this happen under any circumstances, even perjury. She does not. She wanted a real FBI investigation, he did not, and it was jaw-dropping to see him sidestep that question and go silent again and again. What is going on here?
He was asked in his first hearing if he had spoken to any of Trump’s lawyers about the Russia Investigation and fumbled away the minutes. He could have just said “not that I know of, but I don’t know everyone who works for that firm”. But he couldn’t say not that I know of because that would be lie. All he could say was, “do you have someone specific you’re thinking about senator?” But that wasn’t the question. The only possible reason that question was such a debacle is because he couldn’t say “no”, and I couldn’t say “I don’t know”. And that’s about the Russia thing.
If that is true then, it all makes sense why he was going to be forced on that court no matter what. Because Trump and the Republicans in the Senate want that investigations shut down. Like the FBI investigation they don’t want for Dr Ford, they don’t want one Trump’s connections with Putin. And his taxes may be next. But an innocent person isn’t afraid of an investigation. It might not be comfortable but if innocent it would prove that which is what you’d think a person would want. And that brings us to what happened yesterday. I know that women as a group are standing up and saying we won’t be silenced. But if we’re being honest, we know that on a personal and private level women are being sent a message here. The goddamn president made fun of Dr Ford for fuck sakes. He said it’s sad time to be man? Men are the real victims. Are you kidding me? This is can’t really be happening, is it? I’ve never been so afraid for the future of my country than I am now.
As I said, I never wanted my blog to become political and I might even delete this because the last thing I want is for friends or family to read it and start an entire thing with that. Yes, I have family who are on the other side of this and for the life me I don’t get it. I mean, it’s crazy. They’ve already made their mind up that this investigation is a witch hunt even though people are going to jail. It’s real. The only person who said it’s witch hunt is the guy being investigated and that’s what they believe. And they think I’m brainwashed. It’s crazy. I just want to know the truth. I mean, how is that crazy? Oh, but I guess truth isn’t truth anymore.
I don’t know what to do, and the whole thing makes me sad. I’m terrified for Lily. For all of us really. I know this is crazy but I almost want the Republicans to win these elections coming up and maybe even 2020 too. What? Yes that’s what I said. All of this and the economy is going to come to head at some point soon and it needs to land at the feet of the people who brought us here. If the Democrats win it’ll all be blamed on them just they way Bush’s economy and wars and deficit from his tax cuts were all put on Obama. Nope. If and when this ship sinks the crooked cabal that’s in power now have to be at the helm.
So that’s my rant for today. This is what it took for me drum up enough motivation to write and to be quite honest it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I hate having this anger boiling in me. It’s not who I am and it’s not who I want to be. I hate politics and and I hate that I’ve been drawn into this. I’ve already shut myself out of social media because of stuff like this. It’s become a weapon and it feels like it’s slowly killing me, which I’m sure is the point. They don’t want us using the internet or social media to come together. They are using it tear us apart and it’s depressing. I can’t do this anymore today. I’ll have to force myself to write something uplifting soon. I need to smile.